Thursday, September 28, 2006

This Boob is Moving On

The title is a quote from the comedy series Cheers BTW. I've now got off my anti-depressant and have been taking natural therapies for two months. The change is amazing ! I've been able to give up cannabis and tobacco. I have feelings coming back that I never new existed, emotional and physical. There is a difficult side. I sometimes feel somewhat 'odd'. This is because I've spent 16 years being in a particular state from the drug I was given. To be specific, high levels of serotonin because the drug damaged parts of the neurons in my brain that take up serotonin. This is a huge change...but not a moment too soon. I'd like to mention the literally thousands of people who have helped me to this point over the years through some small comment or larger help....it has all 'conspired' to wake me up! Love also goes out to those too scared to face the truth of my position and their own problems. Some of us, including myself, become frustrated by those who seem 'unreachable' in the face of world problems desperately needing brave souls to understand and listen. Never give up ! It all works out in the end...the most 'evil' people can come round...and the brightest and best can make the most awafull mistakes....it's a mysterious process. Suffice to say I am starting to enjoy engaging with life direct rather than with some kind of fog in the way. And when I'm ready I'll be campaigning full on to help break out more of those people in a closed down emotional state we call...."the Matrix". Barney